Friday, March 20, 2009

Not so good

Things were not hectic today, they were not crazy, but I ate like a mad woman. Seriously no excuse for my behavior today. But thank GOD it is spring break and I have got to do some serious soul searching. The scale has hit an unnacceptable level. If someone could find the common sense hammer and beat me over the head I would appreciate it.

I am also sick of people who say "you don't look like you have gained weight." Yeah...well the scale don't lie and either do my jeans!

My marathon is coming up and if I don't get a move on it I am going to be crapping out at mile 20. GRRRR...pissed off at myself today.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Things have been going pretty well on the food front. I think I have finally found the situation that will work when I am at school. We will have to see. I am sure I look like a pregnant woman (NO I AM NOT PREGO!!!) when I am sitting there eating my cheese sandwiches with pickles! Told you I sounded like a pregnant woman.

Just played in the staff vs. Mr. RHS contestents volleyball game and didn't do half bad. My arms are now bruised up from the volleyball but I had fun. My outfit wasn't as good as it was for the basketball game that we played last month, but it was still a spectacle. I will have to post pictures later.

Well I had best get to bed...just checking in to stay honest!

Sunday, March 15, 2009

It has been a long time since I have posted on the blog, basically because my life has been in such turmoil that there was no time, no motivation, and no reason to bog everyone else down in my living hell.

However, things are much better now and I am back on track. Over the last week I have managed to get my food under control, though the sweets are still calling my name. I was never a huge sweets eater prior to surgery, but something changed when I had my tummy tuck. Now I can't get enough of them. It is amazing how quickly the old habits coming rushing back. Though I guess there is no reason for them to not do so. After all, I lived those habits for 20+ years and only have developed the new habits over the last year! Time wins! But I am back to counting and tracking all of my calories and working out like a fiend. So far this week I have done 2 days of 10+ miles and 2 days of 6 miles. Not too bad.

I have the Eugene Marathon coming up on May 3 and I am desperately trying to train for that. I think that I will be alright as long as I make time for myself. This has been the biggest problem over the last several months. Everything and everyone seemed to take priority over me.

DH and I are also training for some major hikes this summer. There are three that we are planning on doing:
1. Hiking the South Sister Mountain
2. Hiking the 2.5 mile hike from Sunrise Lodge to the Summit of Mt. Bachelor
3. A 66 mile hike somewhere near Central Oregon.

Those are the three major hikes that we will be doing, though to train we will be doing several other minor hikes throughout the summer.

Well I am really going to try to make the effort to come back here more often. I miss the inspiration that I get from everyone else!

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

I need motivation

I am struggling big time. I have no time and no motivation. I am working on my second straight 20 hour day, I am eating like shit, and I can't manage to find the time to workout. My weight is fluctuating 6 pounds or so a week. I can't seem to get below 150 and stay there. I have NO will power right now.

I HAVE to start blogging here everyday and keeping myself accountable. However, I seriously don't have time. I am choosing to type here at 10:52 pm instead of either going to bed or finishing the test recovery packet that I need to have done tomorrow.

So far today I have gotten up at 4AM

Went to work at 4:45 AM
Wrote a student notes packet
Made 1000+ copies of all of the packets
Taught all day
Had 2 different meetins during my prep period
Scarfed down my lunch at 9:00AM because I give up my lunch to help students
Had 2 meetings after school
Came home and graded 100+ tests
Wrote a test revision
Ate way too much fucking food

And now I still need to put contact paper on 30 sheets of paper
Write a test recovery packet
And oh yeah...try to get some damn sleep.

I just can't keep doing this. Something has to give and right now it has been exercise and proper eating. I just grab candy to keep me going all day. Yeah...1 year of no junk food and now I am eating like I did before surgery. I know that I have to stop, but I am not certain how I am going to do that.

I have some big decisions to make and some prioritizing to do. And I desperately need to train. I have a half marathon in 1 month!!!!

Monday, October 6, 2008

Life can be mean

So just as I start to get back in the swing of things...my mother-in-law dies. It has been a terrible ordeal for the last 2 weeks but the outlook of getting back on track seems to be getting closer. I have lost a few of my "found" pounds but the result of the last couple of weeks have derailed the process a bit.

I am continuing to run and exercise and that helps a bit. I took another bereavement day today in order to catch my breath and get caught up at work. Then hopefully tomorrow I will be back to some sense of normalcy. We will see though. When it rains...it pours!

Sunday, September 21, 2008

SOOOOOOOO close

1 hour 0 minutes and 58 seconds. And I am so damn proud. My first race back and I beat my PR by 20 minutes!!!! It was not as downhill as they claimed however! There were some significant inclines at the beginning of the race.

On another good note...I lost 3 pounds this week and am thankfully below that dreaded 150 pound mark that I had hit.

I am thouroughly exhausted however and am going to sleep so that I can get up EARLY in the morning and get to work to grade projects.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Okay...I'm back

I think I am doing better now. Pretty much off the meds and feeling more like myself. I am back posting on LBT.

I went and got a fill yesterday so that should help with being hungry all the time.

As for running... I have my first race tomorrow. It is a 10K that is pretty much all downhill so I am really hoping to run it in under 1 hour. I have been at the gym (or run) everyday this week except once and several of those days I burned over 750 calories.

Feels good to be back!